to
father,

I wish I could write it to my father
cause I know it I can’t tell him on the face
whenever he asks me the reason for my pain
whenever he asks, the silence remained
the silence remained like in a graveyard
I don’t have any answer
just try to comfort him
with a fake nod

a nod that shows nothing is wrong
 I am fine I am well
I can sing a happy song

I wish I could write it
everything  I’ve went through
the reasons for my miserable life
or at least a clue

I wish I could write
about the one trusted soul
who tamed me betrayed me
who gave me black  hole

I wish I could write
I need him the most
I need his hand on my head
I need him
at any cost……