What does make sense?
Infect does anything makes sense at all? I am four days away
from my seventh semester’s main exams.
And after all plans and strategies, all the rough work and all the aims,
motives, I am sitting on my desk, writing once again.
As I was left with 10 days for preparation for my exams, I
decided to leave few things until I get rid of my exams. I signed off from gym
for 20 days, I left college, meetings, social gatherings, even the writing, and
when I say I left writing I mean I left pretty much “everything”. To give my
whole hours to study and study only. But what am I left with?
Fake promises that I made to myself? I have hardly read 10% of my whole course
with no info about the 90% I still have to complete in four days.
Picking up book for 10 minutes, pick up facebook for another
hour, a whole night to movies. I am watching movies more then I watch on
regular days. Have I become a movieholic? Does that count in a disorder? I
guess not as if it did, MS word would have approved it as a grammatical error
free disorder.
Am I enjoying this break as a holiday from work cause all I
do my whole time is eat sleep watch movies and add this hour to useless writing
that won’t get me a regular pay check anyway?
When I used to go to college, I had this tight schedule of
going college, sleeping afternoon sweating for 2 hours at gym and sleeping
right at 2 or 3 am. Its late I know but even if it was late, I used to wake up
again at same 7 in the morning.
But now, I sleep at 6 in the morning, I wake up at 4 in
afternoon, the time when everyone works I lay dead on my bed. The time when
everyone sleeps, I watch movies.
As I can recall, I’ve
seen rush, a typical hindi 2 and half star hindi movie, which was
watchable for once but couldn't make a memorable impact on me and the rubysparks, which was an amazingly created movie
made by a fresh mind.
I just can’t resist this urge to watch more and more of
anything.
What am I up to with my life is a mystery to myself. I am 20, will become 21 in the initial months
of next year, except from age what am I gaining?
The spirit,
I am just loosing it…..!!
I am just loosing it…..!!
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