There were many encounters with graceful kind of peoples in
my life, I had relationships, I had break ups, crushes & few flings. But
soon after the roughest break up I had, I started disbelieving the thing called
“love”. Though I still have an envious desire to be with someone, I can’t give
a name to that relationship.
It all seems too phony to me, and this presumption became sturdier when I
recollect the incident of last 2 days or the specific two hours.
HOUR NO 1
In my
facebook profile, I found a startling raise in
notifications on one day. A girl named khushi had liked and commented on more
than 30 snaps of mine, I genuinely accept that I don’t count under the “tall
dark handsome” category but still praised by a stranger, I felt obliged as well
as awed, my consciences told me to not fall for the bait . Most of the time I
stay offline while logging on to my account as I’ve always walked away from
chit chats, but that day I went online. Yes, she was right there, stolen a look
of mine at her tab.
“hi” initiated conversation. Well the trick is to not show too much interest
yet seemed into her. Just like push and pull.
Comment on her at one moment compliment on another.
“I think you’re single right now, isn’t it?” I texted
“Yup, but how do you know?” she.
“it’s just a logical theory of mine, anyways”
“tell me no? I am interested in these logics”
(when you succeed to glue her to the conversation, it shows she’s interested in
you. )
it doesn’t matter what logic you tell her. It must sound appealing as well as
baiting for a longer conversation. And when she has already liked your snaps,
you are on a way to success.
“But I think your committed” (she)
“and why is that?”
“logic ;) ”
(when the opponent pulls out the same trick, it means she’s definitely
in to you, now even if you know the answer you have to seem interested.)
“OMG. I love logics. Please tell me that?”
Doesn’t matter either what crazy stuff she tells you, you
must show you’re impressed.
When the both sides show an “involved” signal, the first
step is done.
I just lay back on that time and knew I don’t have anything
to do now, in the next 5 minutes she told me things you hear in Indian movies,
like
“A lot things are common between us”
(even if it wasn’t I hated justin bieber whereas she loved him, I found novels
and writing blogs interesting whereas she found it dreary, but I don’t know
after all of contrast nature, she was still into me that was indeed odd)
But I didn’t wanted to hurt any sentimental back then and
politely replied.
“Yes it isJ”
“You know what lets exchange numbers?”
(Wow what was that? Few minutes ago we were completely outsiders
and now we were exchanging numbers)
“ummm okay.. ” (With hesitation)
“8890267234 call me ;)
“Okay”
and after that I went offline. With doubts and ambiguity about today’s
generation, I guess I am too old now.
HOUR NO 2.
“Hey, you
didn’t call me yesterday?”
“I was a bit
busy” (I wasn’t busy but I didn’t like the way it was going, too fast)
“Anyway,
tell me yours digits and I’ll call you Mr. busy boy”
“9920276248”
“gotcha ;) I
really liked the way you were talking yesterday, though I dislike your
affection to novels and writing, I found you dashing in your snaps”
“shukira J” (means thanks)
And a moment
later we were chatting over cellphone, this and that here and there. She sound
really into me and I was really into the novel I wasn’t able to read because of
her, I regretted giving her my digits.
“Listen, I’ve
pre boards till 29 then we shall meet over a movie or something”
“you sure you want to meet on this crucial time of your main exams?”
When I was
in 12th I was immersed into last year papers on that time, things are
changed now.
“No big deal
sweetheart anything for you”
“Okay, hey it’s too late for now, we’ve been talking for
whole 30 minutes, and shouldn’t we sleep now?”
“Oh c’mon... It’s just 1 am, don’t tell me you sleep early and
shit?”
“No but you must, it’s not good at exam time”
“Okay…. Good night, I lo--”
I ended the call before she dropped the 3 letter word. I was literally
horrified at that moment.
She called me regularly for the next 3-4 days but I always
cut her short by saying that her exams are much important then our conversation.
It must sound like I am afraid of relationships by reading
this post. But it’s not. I am just different then rest. For me the relationship
that reaches the top with a great pace falls down with greater. It’s like
gravity, projectile motion.