Roots of buddha

We all know Gautam Buddha is the founder ofthe Buddhism religion. But few of us know where he came from. People have been relating Buddhism to east asia but to their surprise, Buddha has been born and raised in lumbini nepal.

Birth
Gautam Buddha was born in the sakya clan which was a kshatriya clan in the year 563 BC on the auspices day of vaisakhi purnima in a district named Rumminindehi near by lumbini, Nepal.

His father who's name was Suddhodhana was the king of kapilavastu and mother was Mahamaya (princess of kollia)

Most of the scholars believe that his mother died 7 days after his birth from reason unknown and later on Buddha was raised by his step mother and aunt Gautami.

Marriage and children
Much young to today's world, Buddha was married at an age of 16 years which was appropriate to that era. He was married to Yasodhara (princess of Shakya clan) with whom he had a son named, Rahul. It must come as a surprise to many hindu families who name their son Rahul, that the name is actually a Buddhist name.
Although Buddha had everything a millennial could wish for, he wasn't happy and that's what was making his life gloomy and miserable.

It's a common rumour that his father was told by an astrologer that Gautam is highly impressionable and is potent to lead a life of an ascetic, this is why he was bought up in a much happier place where his reach to outer world was limited.

It's ironic that Buddha who's followers are around the world and is known for his peaceful ways of treating every sorrow of life, was actually from a kshatriya clan. 
In a country obsessed with religion, temples  and godmans. Buddha will always be known as "the enlightened one" 

Shiro the life saver

It was a hot afternoon and i was just returning from an excruciating session of science class from my coaching institute. As i approached toward the road to my home i saw a weak puppy, barely 20 days old, malnutritioned, abandoned, hardly able to stand on her feets, probably orphaned because i did not see any sign of her parents anywhere, i waited for an hour there while i was feeding her stuff from my lunchbox. She was hungry for sure because she gulped down entire parathas in barely 30 second.

Time passed by and there was no sign of anyone, already unemployed and a burden on my parents, i decided to take her home without thinking about the consequences. To my surprise my parents let me keep her on the condition that i have to let her go when she's able to stand on her feets.
And that was it, Shiro became part of our life on that day and has been ever since. Seeing her grow up was like seeing your own child grow, she have this utterly cute habit of eating from my hand when she's unwell or moody. She has every tantrum of a Diva and is fairly feminine in her ways.
I did not even know her gender until the vet confirmed that she's a girl.
Yes i have let her out of my sight and walk freely on road because as promised to my parents i have to let her go, it was hard on me as she's been there when i needed someone to just simply being there.

A few days ago she came home staggering and weaker then ever, she refused to eat anything and was just drinking water. A lady nearby conformed that she saw her pooping blood and i got very anxious and worried for her. My dad took our car to his work and i had no one who could help me take her to a vet, i took some neighborhood help and we took her to a vet. Sadly the vet told us she has contracted parvo virus.
To guys who do not know what parvo is, it is a terrible virus that attacks immune system of your pets and leave their intestines bleeding, there's too much diarrhea, vomiting and dehydration. 90% dogs who contract parvo do not survive. You need to take the dog immediately to vet and get her on fluids transfer process in which they use drips to help with the dehydration as the pet won't eat or drink otherwise.

Shiro was put on IV bags and there was constant excretion of blood, she just couldn't hold any liquid, it was a killing moment for me because i already lost a pet to the parvo and couldn't even imagine going through the same again. The same process was repeated for the next few days, she was injected with so many drugs, her eyes were sunk in, her skin lost all the shine and felt like a shrinking dry leather.

Thanks to the great support by the vet and my parents Shiro survived and i couldn't be more happier. It looked like we saved her but she have been my saviour from the day she came to my life. I feel blessed to have someone like her in my life.

Forced Adhar card ?

"Amongst other queues the mango people are prone to follow for their government related work, the Aadhar card wins the race of being the most obnoxiously difficult job to do.

Yes, the law says it's not a mandatory and we're free to have it or not but the strings that are attached to other highly important jobs coarse you into having one.

It was yet another day for my regular family to ask me to do the irregular house chorus which i would happily do otherwise, irked me as i have my ssc exam coming up and yes every minute must be absorbed with high enlightenment on Indian history, world history, geography, algorithms, theorems, deduction of lucid and Mendel's laws of genetics and the thread goes on to learning n types of idioms.

As the man who wears the pants ordered me to do what my mother asked me to do, "to make her a aadhar card as she can't get a sim by her voter's id because the voter's has her old address on it.", i can't argue with my bread and butter can i? And it's already been 2 years since I've left my last job In pursuit of a government job but that ship is yet to sail, i guess it's bolted to the deck. The importance of studies diminishes everyday for my parents as results are adverse 9/10 times.

So i took my mother to the closest e-mitra where the man said the software which loads the data is not working and i have to agree with the technical jargons as I'm a certified cs engineer, i have to know everything. Not to worry we went to another e-mitra which by the way was 5 kms away, and to my surprise, the guy there said modi ji changed policies and now only few selected banks have the authority to make Aadhar card.

Wow, am i dumb or the last guy i met fooled me with the software story, and let me remind you once again, we're on the road from last two hours because my 50 year old mother can't get a sim under her own name because she doesn't have Adhar card. 

None the less we went to the selected bank which was yet another 10 kms away and already feeling dejected the man in charge said it was his time to go home. (4 pm mind you, no wonder lakhs of people want a government job) 

For the next three days we struggled with daily up down of 50-60 kms to get my mother her Adhar. One day it was lunch time when we reached there, the next day their software crashed and the next day they couldn't take more than 10 forms. Yes finally our form got accepted. You might be wondering why i didn't apply online for the Adhar, well A, you need the ratina scanner and fingerprints scanner  to create  the Adhar first time and B, year back i applied for updation of Adhar on the online portal which got rejected three times due to mismatched documents. The same documents got accepted when i took them to an e mitra. 

This is current model of employment by the government. Tughlaq made 5 mistakes and is known as intelligent fool, indian government makes the same schemes, and ordinary men becomes fool... ""

About me

Hey there,

My name is Yogesh saini and Agerange.blogspot.com is my brainchild.
Writing about myself feels like blowing my own trumpet but i will try to encapsulate my existence in few words.

Education and experience
I've completed my Engineering in Computer and science from Rajasthan technical university in the year 2014. Later on i worked in a corporate firm as a project head. My work used to be handling turnkey projects of IT, security and automation. I worked with highly prestigious institutions like Manipal university,
Narayana hrudayala and so many more.
Sadly the company shut down and so did my interest in being a corporate, i worked at an mnc, Teleperformance for an year but could'nt survive the rotational night shifts and time bound slave culture, although i learned a lot about US culture and technology they use but by that time the seed of joining the Indian government was sown in me.
I left that job and have been studying ever since, the dream is a tease but my will is concrete as well.

Things I'm enthusiastic for.
Apart from writing, I've always been fond of other living beings. I've been blessed with companions like birds, fishes, dogs (ohh so many) and a plethora numbers of plants.
I've petted german shepherds, pugs, Pomeranians and a lot of indian periah dogs.
I stopped petting birds and fishes as i believe they're best left in their natural habitat.
Apart from animals I love gardening, horticulture has been part of my family for more then 5 generations and I've been planting plants since forever.

Being a blogger
Wow that goes back to the early 2000s when i was studying in 7th standard, i won a poem writing competition and that was the trigger for my writing hand and it never stopped.
I've been writing journals,poems, social articles, autobiographys and what not. To deliver the craft i joined blogger in 2012 and yes that's pretty much all.

wet

I usually spend about 30 minutes into the washroom,
Before I do anything I turn on the geezer because I can’t stand cold water in the morning it ruins the night  I’ve still stored in my eyes.
I used to trim my hair daily but since last few months  I’ve started keeping a little stubble but fairly trimmed 
I brush my teeth twice because the first time the tooth of brush is hard and it gets too rough on gums, it follows with a Listerine mouthwash. I like to dilute the mouthwash a little before rolling it in my mouth. It’s too stingy to be taken without a 20 ml of water in it.
While the whole procedure of getting ready for work lasts, my eyes are drowsy and you can sense it from the puffiness and although you might find them attractive in certain ways, I feel like punching anyone I see that time because yes, I’m a little cranky at the mornings, usually people find it delightful to greet with a smile and I like to respond with a middle finger pointed at them
 I can barely see through my eyes and there are often times when I pick up a facewash instead of a toothpaste to put on to my brush.

I like taking a shower naked because I don’t like anything coming between my skin and the hot stream of soothing water,   there’s something eternally enchanting about the warm water touching your skin, like if the water had feelings, it will be getting intimate with you in most alluring ways, touching you at places no one else would ever think of.

I can do with any soap they all comes from the same fats potassium sodium treated under strong chemical preservatives with a tad bit of different colors and fragrances, in the end they’re all serving same purpose in mildly different way.
I don’t use soap for my face since the skin of face is much sensitive that can be affected by the smallest of things, that’s why I use a lemon based facewash or something which include benzoyl  peroxide and salicylic acid in strong composition since I have a acnegenic  skin, while purchasing a facewash I make sure that it doesn’t have a perfume or any fragrance, because people don’t sniff your face whenever you’re with them, not generally.

 The only shampoo I use is the one with anti dandruff property, that’s it that’s all, pour some on my palm gently spread it over the palm of the other hand and play a little with your hair, let the bubbly mess reached the roots of my hair crawl onto my scalp and don’t leave a single hair untouched.

I Wait for 1-3 minutes and rinse it off with the warm water.

That’s almost all of it…
almost….

  

Jerry

I remember that day when i saw you for the first time.

You were trying to squeeze yourself in the corner of a small cartoon, you were scared of all of us.. You couldn't even fill the corner that box. Your eyes were popping out of your small tiny head. Your fur ohh the fur... It was smoother than the cashmere wool. Your pocket sized paws were so cute i could just eat them up...the tail like a shred of noodles, pea sized little vampire teethes that you loved to dig on my sweeter or my fingers.. 

You could fit on my palm like it's the place where you actually belong. 

I remember when i posted your picture on Facebook, my ex commented "finally you have someone you can enjoy with" yes. You were someone whom i could enjoy with. You loved to sleep on my abdomen every now and then, and pissed me off everytime you pissed or puked on my bed.

I hated to take you out because you'd pee or scratch the walls for hours like you were some engraving artist.. People's dog follow them but i followed you everywhere you went. You'd follow random people, pee or chew tyres of cars and create ruckus for everyone... 

I remember, when the first time i broke up with someone I truly loved. I'd spend hours hugging, patting and caress your back. I didn't notice but you always felt my pain. In the deepest eye contact we used to have, showed me how much love you had for me. You were more than a pet to me, you were my brother, my best friend, my child, my counsellor you were more than world to me..You understood me in the best way no human ever can or ever will for that matter.. 

Yes I don't care about anyone except my family and you were a intigrated part of it..you were the best part of it..

I remember how you used to love cucumber and jump on every slice of it.

How you jumped on to my chest everytime i came back from office i never minded the scars your nails gave me since for me they were a sign of your affection... I remember how My nephew and niece used to tease you day and night but you never ever barked at them... I hated them whenever they tried to pull your tail or sit on your back and you had to go away from me at such moments..., 

I'm sorry you had to suffer when my parents and i moved away from your place... And I often though of going back to that place just to meet you but than I couldn't... Humans have lost humanity i guess... 

I hate myself for not being there to witness your final moments... Your last breath... Your last expression.. I hate myself for not caressing your back when you were going through that intense pain... For not kissing your forehead when your soul flew away... 

  

Jerry my love. 

You passed away leaving a hole in my heart and emptiness in my life... 

See you on the other side brother...

I too had a birth date

I don't know about all of you but I'm pretty sick of celebrating birthday every year... It gets old after sometimes.. Yes i was born, so was the rest of billions of people.. What's so special about it... Anyway..

Found a little piece of mail flickering in the inbox that went by the subject do reply.. Something i thought I should post.. 

A birthday wish from a lost soul...

 "

Hey!

So i have no freaking idea. Cuz you confused me bad. But in my memory. 

A VERY BERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOGESH!!

Been trying to write a perfect letter for a week now. Vain. 

We have known each other ten months today!  Yeah. Ten months. We have laughed we have fought we have stared at each other embarrassed stares more laughs and stares kissed a few times. We still know so less about each other yet i feel as if we are so close. We talk about things and pain being our strongest suit and put on the cover of being non emo. You especially. Maybe you are. Your are 24 today. Woah! Lost your youth years ago yes. Still young in my eyes. I wish i could be there today with you. Well i wanted to. Had the perfect plan. But had made promises to my nephew to take him out. So couldn't say no. No excuses here allowed. I know. 

I want to make you happy cuz of me too. You are at peace and you are content sort of.as you say. Good. Well i have atleast been one of the constant women in your life for the past months. That makes me glad. Feels good. I want to sot with you like before and talk just talk. Hope it happens soon. I get permission. And be less fearful. 

Want to make you laugh. Want to see you blush. Yes you do blush. Want to stare at you and get those chills when you stare back. Just us. Having fun like we used to. We both need it. I do. 

I hope this year brings you happiness. Hope this birthday changes things and take you more closer to your professional goals. And yes the few clicks on snapchat too. So you can flash all you want. :*

My opinions of you are still the same as they were day one. But I won't call you sad anymore. I trust you. What you say. You van find your own happiness and distarctions very well wherever you want. Admire that about you. Its better than sitting alone and crying. Isn't it. Probably. Well. Be content. It suits you. It always will. DON'T LET ANYONE DULL YOUR SPARKLE. wrote it in the letter too. Don't know if you have ever read it again. Its just a reminder for you of how amazingly cute you are. And how i am always there by your side standing next to you in all good and bad. For i wanna be your angel with the horns on my head. :p 

Will be here for you. Maybe not meet you. But we always got skype biba. I am not a good person i know that. I remember you were by my side onmy birthday and always are here whenever i ask. But i suck i know. You made my birthday so so so much special. Hope i could do the same. But al i am doing is writing you a freakishly long email. I know we talked about a lil details pf your past. I atill regret it at times. But mglad now i know your pain atleast a bit. If not all. I am really really sorrgabout that. 

But yu came out headstrong again. Super proud of you. Stars are in your eyes darling. You will always shine. And it rhymed. Wow. 

I am here. Holding your hand always. Don't let go. I am here for you. Not just for me.  

I would love to all your tattoos one day in person. Let's cuddle and talk. Oh you don't cuddle. Hmm. Its okay. We can. Your secrets are safe with me bibaa. Always. 

 Cuddle ❤️

Hehe. So pushy i am. 

A very berrry happy birthday my wolfy!! 

Stay awesome. The handsomest star. 

L you 

Won't say it before you do now. 

Hehe

mmmuaaah!!! 

Laaado meri. "

I seriously melt whenever i imagine her calling me laado... 

To which i replied... 

"

It's just the way i want it to be.
i was born, that was a good enough reason to celebrate. but i was born 24 years ago. PERIOD. Birthday is just another day for me,
i don't believe in celebrating the fact that I've lived for another year without much of a loss. Or i've gained some extraordinary experience in this period, nothing like that. evolution isn't constant, doesn't have a cycle.

anyway.
thanks for your wishes.
yes, I'm at peace, I'm happy with the distractions because this makes me live the life to it's full potential. I've added another chapter to it by joining talwalkars at c scheme. because i needed to fill the space between getting off from work to going back to my home and taking care of the plants. I'm not a fan of healthy life or anything but just wanted to spend the time by doing something constructive. Yes. I'm living life the way i want, so later on after 10 years I don't have any regrets for not trying. I've stopped shaving since past 2-3 months and shaved off my head again. i laugh at strangers who's first reaction after watching me is that if i'm muslim or sikh. It's a fun fact that how easily our society judges a person based on his looks, gesture or the way he persuade stuff. You can call me an ISIS agent or Amish for instance.. doesn't matter. never did.

And it's not about you and me having a discussion about that era of my life. everyone has their fare share of good time and bad time, what matters is how you handle the situation. I happen to handled it in worst ways that i never feel pride for, maybe everything happens for a reason. I don't think about life as if things would have been better if that part didn't occurred in that particular way in my life. what happened... happened. We can't change it. A great love story doesn't have a happy ending. Cliché, i know.. but yes its true.

but life is much better then these things, we have so much to live for, smallest moments can give you greatest pleasure, for instance I've just realised i don't  stare much at keyboard to type. it's a cause of happiness.. small yet it holds it's beauty.
focus on yourself and learn the art of perfection. been my mantra for a while now. I've learned that you shouldn't be dependent on others for your happiness, everyone has their own set of problems to deal with. If you want to do something take first step towards it, toddler step, but a step, at least you've pride that you chose this path, trust me pappi ji, even if you fail at a wrong decision, you'll have a glory of taking it yourself. and don't press the blame on others for your life.


Does it affect me that even after being 24 you're chicken shit scared off your parents, a little yes. do i care? nope. i don't really think about it. your life, your policies. At least you can be happy about the fact that your shit rich.. :P kidding. you're awesome at correcting other's grammar.. and you've got soft paws.. i just want to eat them up.. :P . do i advice you to do anything.. nope. just find the purpose to live... that's what i search for.


Am i at a better place now. Yes, and it can always get better if i push myself an extra mile. another breathe... another step.


being happy or sad is just a matter of choice.
you just have to find yours.

xoxo Saiba,
hugs and love.

I don't have a reason to post this one but whenever i read this conversation... I found that I'm so full of myself.. Lol.. 

Love yourself..